I still remember

I still feel the pain

when I see you today

or I hear that song on the radio

and I still think what a shame

but I don't love you, anymore

its just that my heart doesn't

know any better than to remember

every little thing that i didn't say

but should have

every little time you made me cry

and made me laugh

It might've been me

It might've been you

but the fact is we are through

somethings are better left unsaid

I know we'll never be us again

But I still remember

because my heart

doesn't know any better

It feels there's a piece of me in you

when you walk by I wonder

if your piece in me calls to you, too

I still can't erase my memories

my mind's not a chalkboard,

It won't erase easily

But I'm moving on, and I think I see

the end of the tunnel

well you still remember me

well I don't love you, anymore

it's just that my heart

doesn't know any better

than to remember

Every little thing I didn't say

but should have

Every little time you made me cry

made me laugh

It might've been me

It might've been you

but the fact is we are through

somethings are better left unsaid

I know we'll never be us again

but I still remember

because my heart

doesn't know any better

By:Adam Butram

Declaration of Rights

I declare to you

my worldly and heavenly rights

these are the premises

upon which I stand and fight

I am alive

that I can prove

I have a right to live

that only God can remove

Here may I question

my first pressupposition

that I have rights which are mine

upon which my life to define

why do I have a right

when purpose and origin

escape perception's sight

and run just beyond my mortal grasp

so if from whence I come

and to whence I go

remains in the unknown

then what rights do I know

For then I am nothing

but earth and sod

is this not where we are left

without a true God

If I have no rights

then let me appeal to these

the death of Christ on the tree

I cry out from my knees

For I was truly nothing

but dirt and sod

until breath was put in my lungs

the breath of God

From this day forthI declare no rights

except for the sacrifice

the blood of Christ

By: Adam Butram

Marriage (what I think it should be)

There’s a ring on my hand
A ring on yours
Together we’re walking toward
Heaven’s doors
And I look
At you
You look
At me
And in your eyes
I can see eternity

We are one you and I
Two hearts beating side by side
Life is a story still untold
But with each breath it unfolds
Hand in hand, fingers entwined
Chasing the wonders of passing time

There’s a power of direction in your hand
There’s a need for protection from life’s demands
And so together we can fly
You and I
Spaces in between are shrinking
Every day
And now I am seeing
That though I can live without you
Part of me can’t find;
Anything without you

So I hold you
And you hold me too
I feel your heart beat against my chest
Every beat only pulls me closer
And it keeps beating without a rest
A rose in on the table between the two
Me and you
Your eyes are shining like stars
From a galaxy so far
And you make me wonder
I sit and ponder
All the events that brought us
All the things that taught us
All the lies that broke us
How life betrothed us
I am amazed
By the look on your face
And I am amazed
That you’re with me
And I’m with you Now
I’m holding,The only one,
that’s the truth

Here I am a lovesick fool
After twenty years of lying next to you
It never died but sometimes it faded away
But never for more the ½ second every hundredth day
Because when love is meant to be
That’s when we find everything That we’ll ever need

We are one you and I
Two hearts beating side by side
Life is a story still untold
But with each breath it unfolds
Hand in hand, fingers entwined
Chasing the wonders of passing time

By: Adam Butram

from: my parent's divorce

Sometimes I wonder what my parents thought

When I was a baby in a cradle being rocked

I wonder if they knew it would turn out like this

That they would be swinging on a daily hit and miss

Though they’re not speaking they care about me

And though they’re struggling I can see

They care about my life

But I wish they could end this strife

I love you daddy will you please stop fighting

I love you daddy will you lay your pride down

I love you daddy will you please ask forgiveness

I love you daddy will you learn to love like Jesus

Times change and time goes around

Sometimes we can’t all stand on the same ground

But sometimes you just have to give up and give in

God’s given this for us to live through and in

There’s two sides to every argument they say

I know it’s true I see it every day

But we’ve got to settle only our own

And give in or go all alone

I love you mommy will you let you heart heal

I love you mommy I know the pain you feel

I love you mommy will you please ask forgiveness

I love you mommy will you learn to trust in Jesus

At times there was anger

But mostly I cried

Watching you go your separate ways

Even though so hard I’d tried

I feel so heartbroke

And torn insideI’m trying hard not to notice it

But tears don’t lie

I love you mommy & daddy take life day by day

I love you mommy & daddy please forgive the past

I love you mommy & daddy and I always will

I love you mommy & daddy will you please learn to love like Jesus

By Adam Butram, 2005

Stand Alone

Stand alone

Create the spine

For others to cling to

Forsake the supine

Replacing defeat with victory

And in victory find true defeat

At the foot of a bloody cross, at His feet

Stand alone

Be the man, that all those others

Say you can, amidst the turmoil

Rise and stand, learn to be wrong

And learn to be right, when to prepare

and when to fight, learn to accept this dare

Stand, Stand alone

Be the hero

In a story that’s your own

There’s a world in need

And a willing heart’s the key

The first stanza was original

And now I’m just cliché

But remember to thank Him

For this new today

by Adam Butram

SUPERWOMAN

Whatever happened to superwoman?
somewhere between
juggling a career
and womanhood
she got lost
beneath a stack of "do" lists
endless appointments
buried desires
and accumulated achievements…
Whatever happened to superwoman?
last seen tipping
right off the balancing beam
thrown off-kilter by too much weight
carried in over-ambitious arms
it has been reported
that she lost the ability
to walk between the raindrops
without getting drenched…
no longer able to move
faster than the speed of sound
emotionally
and physically spent
she maintained her image
stifling the urge to cry help
staggering onward
getting wetter and wetter
moving closer
to the kryptonite
of needs ignored
superwoman slipped
and fell…
into a puddle of wordless pride
that threatened to drain
the last strainof
independent strength
that she possessed…
Whatever happened to superwoman?
I found her crying disillusioned tears
weary of her own superhuman efforts
staring back at me
from the looking glass
begging me to keep her secret…
that against all better efforts and judgment
the truth remained the same…
we were not created
to be alone
standing as miniature islands
flexing imaginary muscles
ignoring our hearts
our souls
our very essence…
Whatever happened to superwoman?
she unraveled her cape
in the face of understanding
and welcomed the Son
with open arms
vulnerable
unchallenging
growing ever stronger
in the celebration
or her weaknesses
she gave into love
and all that it brings
and found it much easier to fly…

By Michelle McKinney Hammond

Free

I am free
free to love as never before
throwing open
windows and doors
rejoicing in my wholeness
I see clearly
as I run with purpose
choosing the right road
no longer stumbling
over my own neediness
I move
even paced
head high
shoulders back
heart firmly in place
making choices with my head
not from my heart
ignoring the demands of the flesh
I stretch my spirit
and respond to God's voice
running eagerly
toward His instruction
caught up in His potent promises
I am bound to Him
a willing love slave
yet freer than I've ever been
finding the lost pieces of myself
I foolishly gave to others
casting pearls before swine
once weeping
over the trampled pieces of my heart
I am now restored to give again
to one more deserving...
I discover I am
lost in Him
only to be found in the truth
stronger than ever
ready to love better
because now I have more to give
and I will give
carefully
abundantly
and only at His leading
I rest
I fly
I am FREE!

Michelle Mckinney Hammond